My thinking changed a lot over the past semester. I like to think that I've transformed in a way. I'm more accepting of help, inside and outside of school. I also think I've learned to balance talking and listening a little better.
I used to think that I could do everything by myself, but I can't. The idea that I didn't need anybody else was something that I believed since I was little. To let that idea slip away, even a little bit, was a difficult concept. I did it anyways. My grades improved, I am less stressed out, and I'm generally happier. I have great friends to rely on, and teachers I know I can go to for help. Teachers are there to teach, so why wouldn't I let them help me? The whole "miss independent" idea seemed silly in hindsight. It finally made sense to me why people always tried to change my stubborn mind about it.
I've also been working on balancing observing and talking in class. This year I have definitely been observing a lot, maybe too much. If I told my teachers this year that I contributed too much last year they might not believe me. All of my life I've been a little too talkative during class discussions. Even in Elementary school the teacher would tell my mom that I didn't have to say something about everything. I know I still have a long way to go before I find a good balance between the two. Hopefully I'll be a little closer after this semester.
I'm pretty excited about the next semester. I feel like it's going to be a good one and I'm looking foreword to all the changes and challenges that come my way.
